Hot Music

Sexy!!
I recomend it!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zACTFBm8Ztk&feature=channel

Elliott Yamin

Finally I got the music of Elliott Yamin.

I love his voice!!

From this album I recomend this!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiTyT439QLE

Let's get start!!

I'm so excited about this summer vacation.
I'm gonna let you know my wonderful schedule now.

first, TDL
on next wednesday, I will go to TDL with my friends who are working with me at the same company. Actually one of them had already quit though.
I really hope it will be a fine day!!

next, Tokyo 弾丸Travel
Chiho is coming.
We will go big shopping.
I wanna show her my favorite shop here.

finally, BALI
with Mayuko
Three nights and five days
It's gonna be the biggest event in this summer!
Last year I didn't go anywhere on vacation. I just went back to meet my family and my wonderful friends.
Of course these were the best time for me.
But this time I really wanna go somewhere called RESORT.

I'm gonna report details after everythig is over!

Have a good summer time!!

It has the biggest power

Almost all of people forget the horrible memories.

Instinctively, they try to erase them from their brain.

And then, they try to change it as good memories.

After people got over their difficulties, they can talk them with laughing.

Of course, they got over their difficulties but there must have been big power that is "time".

Although, I often hear, "Time is the best medicine."

I believe it totally.

Without nitice, people can talk their bad memories humorously.

And then, people are getting tough.

Butterfly

This is good music!!

It was a little bit hard for me to understand her songs, Kaera Kimura's.

I know she is a good musician but, she is really "ORIGINAL".

but I was moved by this song.

She made it for her best friend when she got married.
Her thought for her friend must be precious.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FQ8CxXVozk&feature=related

Dinner Time

I made it!!

Do you know what it is??

This is Jambalaya, pork stir-fried with soybean paste and miso soup.

It might be hard to see this is Jambalaya. ahaha

TASTY!!

Cooking is becoming one of my hobbies! lol

Is That a Tactic rule?

Recently, maybe since when I came to Kanto area, there has been the scene that I often see than when I was as kansai area.

That is...guys are bringing their girlfriend's bag regardless of the size of bags.

Is their any necesity?

If it is very big or heavy, that is guy's kindness, I think.
But, basically, they should take bringness of themselves in my opinion.

Isn't this idea womanlike?

Don't I understand circumstance of couple in the world?

Of course, if I have a boyfriend, when I have many bags, for example, we will go shopping and I will have many shopping bags, I hope my boyfriend's kindness.
But I don't wanna take advantage of his all kindness completely.

Who are with me??

31 Sons de mode

Finally, I could go to 31 Sons de mode.

You know what??

You should check "Sweet" which is a fashion magazine.

It is a new brand which Rinka is a image character of.

How can I say?
It is very feminine and cute.

I was trying to buy a dress because of my heart's desire.

But I saved money, maybe next time I thought....

http://31sdm.jp/#/02

bissful moment

I just don't wanna sleep yet.

I don't have a job tomorrow, so I wanna enjoy the best time which is the night before the day off.
I don't have to think about my job.
That's why this is the best time!

If I sleep, tomorrow is coming as you know.

and now I don't feel sleepy.

anyway I hate lonliness. I really think about that when I am able to stay at Kansai area.
recently I really worry about my mom.


I hope this night will last...

Is This A Discrimination?

At first, the company that I am working employs the disabled people as the contribution of society actively.

And then, I met her in my present working place.
At first sight, well still now, I can't admit she has a handicap.
She is very talkative, cheerful, and a hard worker.

At my company, they are given a wage increase, moreover they are given the bonus if they work for more than one year and half month.
For other staff included a full time worker like me, it is very difficult to get a promotion or an increase in salary.

Is this a discrimination?

Actually I don't know. To tell the truth about money, I really envy them because I know it's pretty hard to promote.
But, they must have experienced many disadvantage in their life.

We can live freely except for some restriction.

Last night, she toled me her troubles.
She disclosed to me that one coworker (Miss H)was tough to deal with.
The reason why was she was very strict any time, moreover she didn't say hello smily to only Miss S.

I remeemberd Miss H's thinkng with lietening her talking.

Miss H said to me before, " I come in contact with her (Miss S) very strictly because her salary is higher than other staff even if they can do a lot of things on the job. That's why I request her more than others."

That's right. She must be right.
But, I can't do that. I am easy to people and to myself.

They will work together for a few years at least, so Miss S's bitter annoyance will have been kept.

I was noticed my helplessness.

Healing Music

PUT YOUR RECORDS ON by Corinne Bailey Rae








YOU GIVE ME SOMETHING by James Morrison










I bought two Albams. I rarely buy CDs though.
These two music makes me relax.

Basically I like Western music but I couldn't find the music to give me big impression easily.

First, in the case of Corinne, I like melody and her voice.
The sumary of lyric is "please have a dream and listen to music, your favorite one.
and then you will find the plase you should be. You don't have to try any longer. Do what you want to."

Just it gave me strong impact.

While, in the case of James Morrison,
the sumary of lyric is about guy's feeling for ex-lover.
"It was really happy that he could meet her."

I don't know why but I am haunted by these music to me.

I recomend!!

I can't,,,

I got a mail from my coworker who I worked with when I was working as a part time job a few days ago.

he said I should let our ex-boss know how I was doing.

Suddenly I really glad that he was wondering about me.

But now I can't tell everything to him, of course I really rely on him.
He was my organizer from when I got a job offer to when I decided to enter this company.

He was pretty nice to me even if I didn't show I would enter this company.
He said he would cherred up my desicion, I should choose my right way.

Eventually I decided to work at this company because I belived there were many worker like him.

After I started part time job, he cared about me.
I really appreciate to him.

Since I came to Chiba, I hadn't talked to him at all.
I thought he must be really busy and he had a first baby, so I thought he didn't care about me any more.

But it was not!! That's why I really happy.

Just, how can I mail him?? How can I say about my feeling??

I don't want him to worry about me because I'm not a good cindition about a job.

But I think I will be able to relieve my suffering...

anyway, I can't mail him now,,,

Irritating

Why am I waiting for mailing anytime?
Who made mobile phone and made it convinient to keep in touch?

Of course, mail is very useful and I can't live without mailing.

but, I'm waiting again,,,

She Will Go Far Away.

My first coworker will go far away, Ibaraki prefecture.

Actually we had worked together for just 5 months.
But she supported me naturally, I mean, we complained often about our job, our boss, so many things.

She is also from Kansai area, Amagasaki city.

Until now, I couldn't understand her everything.
Of course, I confuused about it, but I appreciate to her.

I want her to do her best in new position.

What I Felt...

The end of January, I could take a vacation, for about one week.
First of all, I went to Tokyo to see my friend in university
and after a long separation, we went to the night town in Tokyo together.
I remembered our university's life.

We got excitied, enjoyed special time and we were so tired. lol
It would be a good memory that we ate Sasebo burger at 5 a.m. haha

What I felt from her for 2 days was she enjoyed her life.
She was satisfied with her job even if it was not full-time.
It is much difficult to get her goal, however she is growing up steadily.

Next, I came back home, Kyoto, after I spent wonderful night with her.

I hadn't come back since last July, so I was very happy when I got to Kyoto station.
Again and again. I noticed the importance of family after I started to live myself.

While I was at Kyoto, I could change my way of thinking.
I thought I could emerge from disappointment.
I need to change my view of life, enjoy that I'm living, and think about my future.

I'm 23. If I really want to get married, I don't have much free time.

How many people can have the job that they hope?
How many people can enjoy their life. working life, family life, single life and so on...?


To change the subject,
I was presented with the fact by my best friends and that brought me to my senses.

I was about to lose the axis of mine.
It was right answer that I didn't meet him at all.
I want I was the only one for someone.
I really obliged to my friends and people who I rely on.

So,,,when can I go back??

Retracing This Year 2008

First of all, this year was big year in my life. I plunged into new world which I hadn't experienced to live in.
And then I can't find the answer exactly.

Anyway I want to try to remember special things from the begining of this year 2008.

On January, I broke up with my boyfriend. Between him and me, there were big gap about having a relationship.
But still now I remember the memories with him.

On Feburuary, I'd been to Australia as a volunteer by myself.
This was my big charenge for the first time.
For this event, I worked crazily to save money.
Before I graduated from university, I really wanted to do these things which I might not be able to do.
Everything which I saw, I experienced and I met will be precious for me.

On Murch, finally I graduated from Kansai Gaidai University that I spent for special four years.
I could make many best friends. Really, really, I enjoyed student's life.
I have many friends I haven't seen since then because I moved to Chiba prefecture.
But still some of them gave me a mail or call.
Anyway I really wanna see them!!

On April, I started as a member of society.
At that time I didn't expect any difficulties and one happiness.
From April, for three months, I was really tired of new works that I was not accustomed to do.
I was requested many things. But I think I was lucky to be assigned to Kisarazu shop because they supported me very kindly.

On August, I moved to Futsu shop. To tell the truth I wanted to refuse the written appointment.
And the days which was difficult truly was started. There were many many things that I couldn't do well so I felt big stress and I couldn't get accustomed to the members of Futsu shop.
Moreover, there were no privates. Here is totally countryside. I don't have a car, so it is not easy to enjoy the day off.
I always have to stand loneliness.
But there was one thing happend to make me happy.
Now I believe him, of course on my character, I can't release many worries.
But I got a courage from this words.
" If you believe it is going well, it will be well."
I would like to cherish this happiness that was been falling where I didn't expect at all.

Today is 9th of Decemper.
I will be pretty busy from the end of the year to the New Year.

I GOT!!

I'll behave honestly to myself. I don't wanna lower my true feeling.
Of course, I consider someone's feeling and idea.
Just,,, if he couldn't accept me, my everything, this relationship can not keep forever.
I could believe he would be all right while we spent together maybe about 2 months.

But actually I am getting some big worry about our future. He might not release his feeling to his ex-girlfriend.
Someday, can I be better than her?
I don't know,,,

However, listen!!
He will try to make a time for us. He will reduce the time for part time job.
This is a pretty smal thing, someone will say.
But for me, I can't express this happiness.
I just do my best in order that he thinks he is happy because we are together.

What Do You Cost For The Best?

As you know, I like reasonable staff. I can't pay big money for just one thing. However, as people grow up, especially girls, they start to cost for something. For example, one of my friends likes brand-name goods. She tries to correct them, I mean she buys cosmetics, bags, wallet, even clothes in brand-name.

How can I imagine??

It is a pretty big money. You know,,,, I can't do that.
Recently I'm often asked what I pay for a lot of money. Bag? Shoes? Cosmetics? Clothes? Unnnn, nothing.

Before, I was not ashemed at all to tell that I like reasonable staffs.
But, I became a full time. Gradually, I think, Do I need to step up?

Not yet. I wanna save money. But, to tell the truth, I wanna have good shoes. I love buying shoes and I love to make fashionable cordinate by fashionable shoes.
Now I can say that.

Gradually I cost to myself to be an attractive woman, I hope!!

How Far Can I Do?

Anyway I think I will be honest to myself.
I don't wanna regret. I have friends who laugh, cry and rejoice with me in any case, I'm sure.
I don't wanna think about extra things about him now. If his answer would be no, I will cry so much. But someday the tide of time will set me free.

Okay, time to go!!

how can I stand ??

I miss my friends, my life style,,,everything in my life.

After I wached the last story of "SEX and the CITY", I remembered I had many wonderful friends that I could disburden my truth to, you know.

Carry went to France with her boyfriend. She parted with her job and her life in NY.
But she believed that she would be very happy if she were with him in Paris.
For a while, she got excited about whatever she saw for the first time.

However she really felt it was very difficult not to speak and understand French.
And above all she missed her friends.

Her boyfriend were so busy in preparing for holding an individual show.
She started to think about if that was true love.

Then she noticed she couldn't stop her life with wonderful girls in NY.
And the man who was giving her true love was Mr. Big, she found finally.

The last scene that four girls met again at the usual restaurant made me remember my friends.

Here there are nobody. I miss, I really miss my friends.

shopping with girls, just chating in front of house, having dinner at faschionable restaurant and so on

I'm getting tired of being alone at this sad city.