Recent Events...

It has been about 7 months since I started to live by myself. Did I grow up as a respectable women? Unnn,,,I don't know.

I felt lonliness that I don't have anyone that I rely on. No family, no frineds.

But as we live, we'll meet many people. So I met many people, but they were just my coworker.
Of course, they were pretty nice, kind and so wonderful. But as you know, I couldn't disburden everything. I thought I should go back home where my best friends were whenever I talked on the phone with my best friends.

However I will not go back home for a while. I remember that I wanna work in foreign country. That is my dream. I'm sure there must be many new things.

People might say that big dream is just big longing. It might be true.

But I remember my best life in Alabama ever. It's precious memory.

To tell the truth, I don't know what to do now. There are no space to think about it or to do something about it because of my busy job.

Mr. Sugitani, who is a photographer that I deoend on, said,
"Is the present job gonna be necessary for your future regardless of that you like it or not?
It is a very important to think about that. I was an assistant with 80,000 yen a mont when I was 20 years old. It was pretty hard.
But I knew that there were no future for me without that way.
It's like a hairdresser with low salary, you know.
If your present life is gonna be necessary for your future, you should do your best!!
If you can't see what is your future, you should do your best until you can see it."

For now I would like to study English to take TOEIC test on January.