Win or Loss of Love

In my opinion, women feel true happiness when they are loved.
Men should love women deeply.
Some guys say they always tell their love feelings and keep chaseing women. And they say the forbidden words...I wanna be chased and be loved.

That is not true.
I say by considering from my ecperiences.
By instinct, guys want to love women deeply and make them happy.
For guys, that is true happiness to express their supreme love. If women chase them, they will fall out of love even if they were interested in them once.

On the other hand, women need to stand to express their true feelings to them.
Ir you express or tell it them, at first, they will be happy but they fall out of love near future.
Women's true happiness is to be loved by their lover.

I'm saying haughtily but everything is just my desire, Sorry!!

P.S. I Love You

One day, suddenly she got love letter with no stamp from hasband who was died.
That is the begining for everything.

Holly who lost her hasband couldn't understand her lovely hasband death.
But one day she got letter from his hasband. Then she kept getting letters with no stamp.
These were from Jelly.
With feeling her happiness that she could meet her dearest, Holly is getting back her power for living gradually by beeing supported with friendship and family love.

" I can't say good bye yet."

That was pretty good movie.
Again I knew the importance to find my dearest.

Holly could find the fun in her life as a designer of shooes by his letter.
She would not forget about him but she felt that he left around her when she was totally all right.

I got warmhearted feeling because of this movie.

Will someone love me like Jelly in the future?? lol

Recent Events...

It has been about 7 months since I started to live by myself. Did I grow up as a respectable women? Unnn,,,I don't know.

I felt lonliness that I don't have anyone that I rely on. No family, no frineds.

But as we live, we'll meet many people. So I met many people, but they were just my coworker.
Of course, they were pretty nice, kind and so wonderful. But as you know, I couldn't disburden everything. I thought I should go back home where my best friends were whenever I talked on the phone with my best friends.

However I will not go back home for a while. I remember that I wanna work in foreign country. That is my dream. I'm sure there must be many new things.

People might say that big dream is just big longing. It might be true.

But I remember my best life in Alabama ever. It's precious memory.

To tell the truth, I don't know what to do now. There are no space to think about it or to do something about it because of my busy job.

Mr. Sugitani, who is a photographer that I deoend on, said,
"Is the present job gonna be necessary for your future regardless of that you like it or not?
It is a very important to think about that. I was an assistant with 80,000 yen a mont when I was 20 years old. It was pretty hard.
But I knew that there were no future for me without that way.
It's like a hairdresser with low salary, you know.
If your present life is gonna be necessary for your future, you should do your best!!
If you can't see what is your future, you should do your best until you can see it."

For now I would like to study English to take TOEIC test on January.

Various Way of Our Life

One of my friends, classmates of university, will get married. And next year, I'm not sure but next supring, he will be a father. SUPPRISE!!

I got this info. from mixi so I don't know about details but I guess the trigger of marriage for two is baby. Unnnnnn...well, it's obvious.

But, I really wanna say congratulation to them, I don't know his future wife though. lol

I wanna have small party for him even if he will have wedding ceremony.
Cuz he is a member of 30 which is our class name is first year of university.

I really understand it's gonna be sooooooo difficult to gather member, especially I can't decide my vacation time.

For me, the memory that I spent with 30 members is treasure of my life. After I graduated from university, I felt that seriously. Now few people can make contact but, some people are still keeping in touch with me. From now on, it's hard to make friends like them. Even if they don't sympathize with my feeling I wanna treasure my memories of 30.

In our life, I hope sincerely their happiness and success that they will choose and get by themselves.

Well, anyway congratulation, Shu-kun!!

And thank you, everyone!!

Sweet Home

I had been back my sweet home town, Kyoto!!

I could meet some my best friends, it was not all that I wanted to see though.

I don't know but I just feel free when I was with them. Since I've worked at Kisarazu city, I couldn't be released from my problem, feeling, everything about myself.

Everyone, my frineds, just said come back kyoto. YEEEEA I waana do that!

Before I came here, I thought I would like to independ from my parents. I didn't wanna depend on my family and frineds. But it was wrong.
I could be very comfortable if I could have stayed with them.

I still have a sweet friend that I really want to see. We often talk on the phone though lol

okay change the subject!!

I made a curry. It was pretty nice lol

but this morning, it was pretty bad, taste was so sour.
Guys, be careful with keeping cook during summer!!

I got a pack from my mom yesterday.

a few days ago, I just said on the phone " the cost of food is a little bit high than I expexted." and hen she gave me some food, like easy rice, some can staff and so on.

THANKS!!

but I like cooking. When I have time, I wanna cook. I didn't do before at all, so now I wanna challenge!

of course, I can't cook very well, but I think it is not bad:P

so I like shopping in a supermarket with thinking whta I will make tonight!! lol

well, anyway, yesterday I couldn't stop crying.
she gave me letter and money with packing.

I was suprised cuz I haven't got a letter from my mom seriously.

the thing people can't do anything by themselves
1, Being born without any handicap
2, Being born which parents we have, whch means we have family.
3, Living whitout serious disease and big accident

yes, I am a happy person. Because I have these. Trivial happiness in normal life.
The happiest person is who can find them and can feel happy sencerely, I think.

yesterday everything in work wasn't going well. I noticed that I was really trying to keep back crying with working.

I cryed when I read a message from my mom but after that I could make smile.

today is my off, i will take refresh and from tomorrow I will do my best again!!
まぁ今日はリフレッシュしてまた明日からがんばります☆

Start my free time!!

I will start to go to English school again!!
On day-off, basically, I don't have nothing to do. so I decided.

for us, like members of society, it is very important to make line between on and off.
I thought what I was interested in. ENGLISH!!

I wanna use English. I wanna speak it!!

Considered to before, I can't go there a lot. But maybe I can be refreshed.

I got phone call yesterday from my friend who worked together in UNIQLO last year.
We made a rule to change our feeling on day-off. Don't think about our job.
The point for a member of society is how well make line job day and free day!!

well, I'm interested in cooking also. I can't believe cuz I haven't made cooking before.
But now I feel fun when I cook. I'm not good at it though. lol

well, tomorrow start working again. It is gonna be very busy cuz it's weekend!!

bye now!!

Trying to be a memeber of society

Finally I came back from UNIQLO induction in Yamaguchi. I did it!!!!! and then,,, I am at KISARAZU again.

on 2nd and 3rd, we spent almost all day at gym of company to check our health and proceed for getting employed by UNIQLO.

on ４th, we had a entrance ceremony for a company. I decided to do my best and be a excellent manager after I listened to his message from president Tadashi Yanai. he expected we would be full-fledged as soon as possible. also, we had a lot of chances to talk with people on the top level of UNIQLO. I was moved by their passion for their work.

Tuneita san said she would look forward to see that we would be a manager of shop at convention. I thought I wanted to show it for her as soon as possible.

The thing I should not forget is that Omura san believe me. I will not forget that I thought I wanted to work with him.

and finally, UNIQLO induction started. I learned to order myself on high level.

the thing that UNIQLO requests is to be a manager of shop. Before, I didn't wanna be it but now I wanna be cuz that is basical thing for my career. I wanna promote UNIQLO clothes or another staff all over the world. that is my goal.

So I need to know everything about my company and get various experiences.

I wanna be person who is trusted on by staff, boss and a lot of customer.

I made a rule that I don't determine my end line for my possibilities.

and then, I met many people. This time I wanna introduce KUMI. She is a URC like me and also she is a mother. When she said to me I had a son very naturally in our room, I was so suprised. I thought she was so strong mentally. I'm sure she can work and keep house at the same time. It' s gonna be so hard but she can do it cuz she has experiences that she got better of hard things in her life.
and above all, her love for Ryu kun make her strong.

I hope I can work with her. Both of us hope work at foreign country. hey, she speak english very well cuz she had lived in Holland for ten years.

I could meet great member of ４４９ which is the last shop that I worked. I really felt relax when I was with them. The member of ＵＲＣ are also good but I can't show myself.

Now we will start to work various places, Kyoto, Osaka, Hiroshima, Hyogo, Kisarazu, but I believe we are great team.

The last class I got the letter from Hijikata manager, who is my first boss. of course, everyone got the letter their boss. I couldn't stop crying in the class room after I read it. I was really glad cuz I didn't expect at all. She said she was waiting for me at Kisarazu.

now I don't have the person who I can rely on. maybe she will be for me.

From day after tomorrow, I will work. I don't wanna give up!

I will pass the test to be a manager on July ４th. I know that is so high goal but I believe myself.

abc

my life plan!!

UNIQLO autumn winter 2007 fashion show!!!

My friend got a ticket for it. it was for the first time for me to see the fashion show.
I need to wear UNIQLO clothes when I work there, so it was good reference for me. How cool these were worn by cool models!!

anyway we enjoyed the show. and after that we went around at Tokyo Mid Town. She used to live there so she knew well.

The things that I thought aftern I saw the fashion show is that I would like to work at the advertisement department. To tell the UNIQLO's brand for people, I make various plans or something like that. and someday I hope, I wanna do it all over the world.
In fact, in the world, people doesn't know UNIQLO well.
UNIQLO will be a global company. Now that I can say is that I will think about another way if I can't do whatever I want in three years. maybe I will think about movie company. That is my plan.

of course, it will be changed cuz I don't know anything now, just I'm thinkng in my hart.

URC BBQ

I had a BBQ party with a part of URC member, UNIQLO new coworker in 2008.

I haven't met almost all of people.

We were talking about what we wanna do at UNIQLO. most people wanna work as a president of each store. but I don't think so.

I just started to work there as a part time job. I like working there but I thought I would not feel excited at the store. I wanna work at head office. I am interested in advertisement. But my friend said they would not take new member from us. But there might be a chance in MD.

My friend wanna work at VMD. she really likes fashion. and I guess she has good sense!!

If we have chance, we will go to Tokyo to meet the reliable person of personnel department.

and I wanna talk about that. but I know it's gonna so difficult to get chance that we work at head office.

I will change my job in a few years. I mean if I don't like my job at that time. I have a dream so someday I wanna try it.

one of our memer that I met at the first meeting of URC had quit to work at UNIQLO. He was tenacious of his spirit. He wanna give wonderful dream to children. And I think he can do it!!!

anyway I need to read book about UNIQLO. some people had it!!! I need to keep up with them!!!

good talking!!

OMG!! my mobile phone was broken. You know I was so shocked, I've never broken phone. These days, I need phone to make a contact with my seniors and bosses, in any fields. But fortunately, I could get new one by reasonable price. I don't know why but I could use various coupon.

BTW,,,

yesterday I got one of my very inportant phone call from Daisuke-san. I talked him for the first time in 6 monthes. He came back Japan for job hanting and internship at IT company.

I knew him while I was in Alabama. I guess if he was not a boyfirend of my senior, Erika, I could not have met him. I mean he was very busy parson, and also I had never seen him at school cuz he seemed to stay at lab always.

But we often meet at the party or Ayumi's house ( Ayumi is also my senior). He was always cheerig up like "you are geting special experiences without notice. After you go back Japan, you will meet various people. Everything is for you, yourself!!"

and now, he is in Japan. He was delighted when I talked about that I finished job hanting with satisfaction. and also he finished his job hanting so he will come back Japan next summer.
He said "our life is just beginning. form now on, many problems will wait for you, but you can beat them cuz you have something strong power. I don't know what is going on, but the important thing is to enjoy everything!!" EXAXTLY!!! I really agree with him!!!!!

He will be a great guy in his field, spece something. his strength is true, I'm really sure!!!

After about one year, my respectable seniors including him will come back Japan. One of them will be with her future husband!!

To be a teacher

I still remember my teacher said to us in the class, " I really like this job. how wonderful I can meet various students who have a lot of possibilities. so even if my students doesn't like me, I'll help them, cuz they are one part of my life."



I forgot why he talked about this to us. But he were proud of that he was a teacher.

He was teaching English, I'm not sure he was good at teaching but I like his characteristic. He was a little bit strict but I felt his trying to understand us.



When I was a junior high school students, I belonged to tennis clab. Our teacher often used bad words to us when we made a mistake during the game. But, the best thing that she did for us was believing us deeply. Even if it was so strict words, at the same time she believed our power of heart. surely, sometimes I or my teammates hate her. But also she believed her instruction would be understand by us.

the last day of our club life, she apreciaed us like "thank you for everything until now, you guys didn't give up and followed me. I am glad to spend a time with you and tennis." we were moved by her speech.

all great teachers that I've ever met seemed to enjoy meeting students rather than teaching English, Japanese, Math and so on. The interesting thing for them is that they can be mixed up with young people who have hope, potentialities, dream etc. in the future. They are glad to have effect to students.

around me, some friends wanna be a teacher. I really hope that they will feel greatful to meet the students!! even if they don't show thier interests to you, don't give up!! they are waching you ALWAYS:) and believe your students!!

Good Luck!!

it seems to be easy though,,,,,,

you know, how hard it is that you don't say" I'm tired, I'm exahustied." something like negative word. when I look back on my daily life, yes, I say these sentences.

one beautiful actress says that if I say negative word or make negative air, I will make bad luck by myself.

if she thinks " I'm tired", she never says that. Her husband proved that.

some people, fortunatellers, suggest us that we can change our life happily by ourselves. I believe it!!

and today I assured that there were each meaning of meeting with people. I learnd one way to grow up as a human being.
from people, get good points, and also keep your mind!!!
this is simple theory, but I guess that is didfficult.

everything that I noticed these things owe to her!!

Tokyo again!!!

last time I went to tokyo to take job interview. It was the company of my first choice. But,,, I couldn't get it.

anyway, I need to go there again to participate in the another meeing to explain the company's business results and activities. that company also has movie business. but it's gonna be also hard.

during the meeting we have to give them entry sheet but I haven't finished writing it yet, hahahaha

on the way home from tokyo, I will be tired cuz I will be alone in the bus. that is normal, I know but,,,,,,,, last time, at the bus stop, I met my friend who took job interview at ANA group by accident. on the bus, it was long long way but I could talk with her so I was not bored.

And I expected same thing so I asked her but,,, you know this time was not.

anyway I need to finish writing as soon as possible!!!!!

just one day!!

oh my gosh!! that is my fault, i know,,,,,

this morning I had a kind a feeling that something would be bad. I took a bag of rental video shop. It says until 24th,,,,,,today is 25th!!!!! I didn't notice until right now.
If I can say something excuse, I was busy yesterday cuz I had visited two company, and after I came home, I had to make entry sheet.

anyway it is my fault, but you know I don't want to pay extra money. I wached that movie for entry sheet though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jsut little money, I know, but I'm kinda shoked.

the importance of working

I felt something light from her when I was listening her small presentation. At that time, in my mind somehthing was changed.

at the beginning of May, I visited one famous company. Those days, I was sick of visitin company, anyway job hanting. So I went there unwillingly.

That was kinda big chance that we, students could meet the employees who work at that company. Thay told us about their work, why they chose that company as a working place, or what was the good point as working, and gave us many advices. I took four of their presentation.

now I wanna talk about one of the presentation that I took.

She had been working for three or four years. She was exactly like "a career woman". She was pleasant to talk with us. well, at least with me!!

she was saying like " I really enjoy working. of course sometimes I feel so tired. When I came back home, it was almost 12 o'clock. I can't sleep well, or I don't have my time. but I studyied often about businnes at the beginng because I wantted to work with my senior. It was hard year but I am proud of myself.
When I took a mistake, I was so disapointed. But, my coworker always helped me. and one day my senior and I went to Izakaya, and I told my trouble or everything that I felt bad. She was just listening and encouraged me. And also she treated me. and another day, we went to the restaurant, and I was trying to pay money instead of her, but at that time she said I didn't have to treat her. If I appreciated her, I should take care for my junior. so I'm trying to help my junior always.
Regardress of worknig, the good point that I think is to meet foreigners. I can comunicate with all over the world. and they remember me, so when they come to Japan, they will tell me. and we go to the bar, whatever. I really like my job."

while I was listening to her speech, I thought I wannted to work with her. Surely, she was my image that I had wanted as career woman.

Since then, motivation was came back again.

Now apparently, I can't work with her, but I appreciate her because she taught me the importance of enjoying a job.

books which gave me something impact

I couldn't stop unbidden tears.........

Have you read "SAGA NO GABAI BACHAN"? I really recomend this book!!
probably many people know this book. One of famous comedian is the author of this book. He is talking about his childhood that he spent time with his grand mother.

In spite of poverty, they survived cheerfully after the world war .

I was moved to her many words, the best was " Until you die, you should have dream! Even if it doesn't come true, after all, it is dream."

I wanna say this is not sad story, just I was given courage, something like that!!


And I had read one more recently. Basically I like reading essay like life about women. Do you know Toko Amamiya? She was an announcer at TBS, I gusee she was popular as an announcer in those days.

She went to Paris to learn about art ( I'm not familier with art though,,,) after she quit her job. Studying art was her dream.

To tell the truth, I was trying to go abroad after I graduate from university. But I couldn't say that to my parents. I didn't wanna come on them.

They gave me chance to study abroad, that's enough now. They don't hope anything to me strictly. They gave a lot of freedom. Next I wanna give them freedom. I wanna be my parent's darling!!!

My friend will enter university in Ameirca in the future. at first I envy her but she have big dream to be an acounter. on the other hand, I don't have that kinda strong will, I noticed. Moreover, I don't wanna study at university lol I feel interest for working honestely.

actually I need to pay back money from now on ahahahaha that's hard, I know.

So,,,,,it won't success.

after I read her book, I understand my current condition like that. she also had strong will.
Like her, I always wanna enjoy my life. and,,,Someday I wanna try something big staff!! I hope!! ehehe

anyway if you have time, please read these books!! I'm sure you will feel something heartly.

Start Again!!

After I came back Japan, it's been about 2 months. That is so early. During this two months, what changed around me??

well, I got a part time job. Sometimes I work because I need to do job hanting. But I am getting used to it. As for jpb hanting, I often go to semener of comparny. and then my feeling that I wanna work in the world, especially Europe or America. I know that is so hard. But I wanna try!! I guess working is gonna be totally different with going to school. But asI said before, I had good memory in Ameirca that I couldn't have in Japan. I miss my life, everything!!

Recently, Japanese co. are trying to do business over the world. I guess that is good idea. But now I can't decide comparny or field that I wanna work.

To tell the truth, I wanna work at the movie comparny. I wanna introduce western movie to Japanese people, or Japanese movie to Foreigners.

One day I was reading essey on weblog of person who is working at movie comparny. She was doing well, I mean she said she was proud of her job and herself. I wanna say like her. Now I can't be like her because I am not proud of myself. I mean I can't decide my feeling about job or always I say I wanna make foreigner friends but I don't take action. Sometimes I give up to listen English news. I'm saying on the resume like I am not giving up my goal, always I'm challenging about something. I feel like I'm kinda lier.

well, I don't wanna be dippressed, so I wanna talk about something happy!! I guess around end of March, I'm gonna meet my senier whom I really rely on. She will come back her hometown to attend her friend's wedding ceremony. That is awesome. She is gonna be busy after she comes back because she is very popular. But she said" I wanna see you guys, of course." She said like " you guys are like my sisters." I was so glad!! So I'm excited about that!!

now I'm writing becuase my best friend encouraged me. A few days ago, I met him in the train, it was for the ten months. He asked me about this blog. I was supprided that someone were waching this blog still now. Actually I was alomst forgetting about writing... so I'm gonna start again!!

anyway, now is my very important period. I'm gonna do my best!! ehee

How come!?!?!?!?

What do I wanna do in the future?? oh i don't know........ I am just sure that I like speaking English. Today I had nothing to do, so I went to NOVA's voice, which is like free style speaking English space. There is one Nova teacher, and we talk casual thing. It is very good if there are not so many student there.

It was first time to go there after I came back Japan. I was so worried about speaking English, but I guess it was not so bad. The happiest thing is that other student asked me if I was in America or not, you know, she said my speaking was something different with her. I was so glad!! Next my goal is that teacher asks me that!! lol

I met a junior high school student there. She was so good at speaking English, I mean it was very frequently. So I thought she had been to America, England or other country. And then I asked her where she had been. BUT!! I was supprised that she had been foreign countries only as a trip!! WOW!! How she can speak English very well!! She said she studyed by herself...........It wsa just two years!! I was like,,,,,,,,,

I still need to practice very hard!!