I GOT!!

I'll behave honestly to myself. I don't wanna lower my true feeling.
Of course, I consider someone's feeling and idea.
Just,,, if he couldn't accept me, my everything, this relationship can not keep forever.
I could believe he would be all right while we spent together maybe about 2 months.

But actually I am getting some big worry about our future. He might not release his feeling to his ex-girlfriend.
Someday, can I be better than her?
I don't know,,,

However, listen!!
He will try to make a time for us. He will reduce the time for part time job.
This is a pretty smal thing, someone will say.
But for me, I can't express this happiness.
I just do my best in order that he thinks he is happy because we are together.

What Do You Cost For The Best?

As you know, I like reasonable staff. I can't pay big money for just one thing. However, as people grow up, especially girls, they start to cost for something. For example, one of my friends likes brand-name goods. She tries to correct them, I mean she buys cosmetics, bags, wallet, even clothes in brand-name.

How can I imagine??

It is a pretty big money. You know,,,, I can't do that.
Recently I'm often asked what I pay for a lot of money. Bag? Shoes? Cosmetics? Clothes? Unnnn, nothing.

Before, I was not ashemed at all to tell that I like reasonable staffs.
But, I became a full time. Gradually, I think, Do I need to step up?

Not yet. I wanna save money. But, to tell the truth, I wanna have good shoes. I love buying shoes and I love to make fashionable cordinate by fashionable shoes.
Now I can say that.

Gradually I cost to myself to be an attractive woman, I hope!!

How Far Can I Do?

Anyway I think I will be honest to myself.
I don't wanna regret. I have friends who laugh, cry and rejoice with me in any case, I'm sure.
I don't wanna think about extra things about him now. If his answer would be no, I will cry so much. But someday the tide of time will set me free.

Okay, time to go!!

how can I stand ??

I miss my friends, my life style,,,everything in my life.

After I wached the last story of "SEX and the CITY", I remembered I had many wonderful friends that I could disburden my truth to, you know.

Carry went to France with her boyfriend. She parted with her job and her life in NY.
But she believed that she would be very happy if she were with him in Paris.
For a while, she got excited about whatever she saw for the first time.

However she really felt it was very difficult not to speak and understand French.
And above all she missed her friends.

Her boyfriend were so busy in preparing for holding an individual show.
She started to think about if that was true love.

Then she noticed she couldn't stop her life with wonderful girls in NY.
And the man who was giving her true love was Mr. Big, she found finally.

The last scene that four girls met again at the usual restaurant made me remember my friends.

Here there are nobody. I miss, I really miss my friends.

shopping with girls, just chating in front of house, having dinner at faschionable restaurant and so on

I'm getting tired of being alone at this sad city.