I can't,,,

I got a mail from my coworker who I worked with when I was working as a part time job a few days ago.

he said I should let our ex-boss know how I was doing.

Suddenly I really glad that he was wondering about me.

But now I can't tell everything to him, of course I really rely on him.
He was my organizer from when I got a job offer to when I decided to enter this company.

He was pretty nice to me even if I didn't show I would enter this company.
He said he would cherred up my desicion, I should choose my right way.

Eventually I decided to work at this company because I belived there were many worker like him.

After I started part time job, he cared about me.
I really appreciate to him.

Since I came to Chiba, I hadn't talked to him at all.
I thought he must be really busy and he had a first baby, so I thought he didn't care about me any more.

But it was not!! That's why I really happy.

Just, how can I mail him?? How can I say about my feeling??

I don't want him to worry about me because I'm not a good cindition about a job.

But I think I will be able to relieve my suffering...

anyway, I can't mail him now,,,

Irritating

Why am I waiting for mailing anytime?
Who made mobile phone and made it convinient to keep in touch?

Of course, mail is very useful and I can't live without mailing.

but, I'm waiting again,,,

She Will Go Far Away.

My first coworker will go far away, Ibaraki prefecture.

Actually we had worked together for just 5 months.
But she supported me naturally, I mean, we complained often about our job, our boss, so many things.

She is also from Kansai area, Amagasaki city.

Until now, I couldn't understand her everything.
Of course, I confuused about it, but I appreciate to her.

I want her to do her best in new position.

What I Felt...

The end of January, I could take a vacation, for about one week.
First of all, I went to Tokyo to see my friend in university
and after a long separation, we went to the night town in Tokyo together.
I remembered our university's life.

We got excitied, enjoyed special time and we were so tired. lol
It would be a good memory that we ate Sasebo burger at 5 a.m. haha

What I felt from her for 2 days was she enjoyed her life.
She was satisfied with her job even if it was not full-time.
It is much difficult to get her goal, however she is growing up steadily.

Next, I came back home, Kyoto, after I spent wonderful night with her.

I hadn't come back since last July, so I was very happy when I got to Kyoto station.
Again and again. I noticed the importance of family after I started to live myself.

While I was at Kyoto, I could change my way of thinking.
I thought I could emerge from disappointment.
I need to change my view of life, enjoy that I'm living, and think about my future.

I'm 23. If I really want to get married, I don't have much free time.

How many people can have the job that they hope?
How many people can enjoy their life. working life, family life, single life and so on...?


To change the subject,
I was presented with the fact by my best friends and that brought me to my senses.

I was about to lose the axis of mine.
It was right answer that I didn't meet him at all.
I want I was the only one for someone.
I really obliged to my friends and people who I rely on.

So,,,when can I go back??